Case of the Mondays…
Today I’m having a case of the Mondays. It’s raining and a majority of my day has been consumed with Law & Order. I’ve also eaten a pint of Java Chip ice cream. I’m having a SAD day. The kind of day where you cry for no reason and realize the majority of the world is incredibly happy. It doesn’t help that my ex-boyfriend (the one who dumped me while I lay dying) got married on Saturday. WOE. IS. ME.
I know, I know I’m embarking on a lifetime of self – discovery, yada, yada, yada…BUT TODAY I wouldn’t mind if one of my ex’s would experience some sort of “you can’t live without me” flashback.
Instead they’re getting married OR explicitly sharing via Facebook how fulfilling their new single lives are. Fuck you. The truth is I'm happier too...I'd simply like to avoid your new-found joyful life. Plus, Facebook is the devil.
Now, according to my meditation doctrine I should not dwell in anger or cling to these negative emotions. I should LET GO – and for the most part that’s what I’m doing. Well, except for today. I’m going to keep listening to sad songs on repeat and read Atlas Shrugged. (Slowly, I’m hoping rational selfishness will seep into my self-conscious.)
Alas, Ayn said it best: Learn to value yourself, which means: to fight for your happiness.
I'm fighting all right. Tooth and nail,
Glo


14. Nov, 2010 











